yesterday would have been two months for me and him. i miss him so much. i know it wasn't even two months and i feel this way.but the truth is i fell for him long ago, but went with what my head said and not my heart. my head told me he was just another "player" and i wanted something real & i choose the player & dropped the real thing.
that's why I'm listening to my heart this time. but,is it really worth it/ that's the question. i really think it is, but i need to know not think.
I feel as if I'm taken but I'm really single.It's the waiting game in my eyes. I really do love him, he just doesn't see it.i tell him all the time but to him words are just words, MEANINGLESS. how do i show him? that's the problem. I know I'm young but i wanna grow old with him & i don't know if that's an option. He said in Feb. we could be together, if i didn't change but what if he does? if i can't have him i don't want anyone else.
This man is the one. i can feel it, but is all the pain worth it?
we are working on a relationship which is good it will make us strong in everything. i need to learn how to tell him how i feel but its kinda hard because i have been through so much. so it will take time. i just need to stop thinking so deeply into things before i loose him for good.
